Disintegrating

Disintegrating In glazed eyes and red stains I'm thinking this has to be The biggest case of “I told you so” I know I'm being petty But when Nellie turned and said, “Can't say Dallas doesn't love you…” I almost laughed before you put your hand on my knee To stop me, Please stop me Like I couldn't stop you From disintegrating The young woman you waved to For that moment I hated you I imagined you dead and that I was finally free And that's when it happened 'Did I will it to happen?' Was all I was thinking as I Held your head in my hands This is a tight sleeve, The fucking engines of this plane are shrill My lips are bloodless Please, stop me Please, stop me Like I couldn't stop you From disintegrating The face of that young aid Glancing back over LBJ's shoulder I heard him say, “I've got a sure-fire way to win a second term Put a hit out on his wife The sympathy vote would be a landslide”? You weren't really thinking that, were you? Did you? Were they killing you? Or were they just missing me? And if you were in my place Would you be…Disintegrating?